I'm scared to graduate. Ok that's not really it, I'm afraid of change. I'm afraid of uncertainty. I'm afraid of goodbyes. I know people come in and out of your life all the time and that's normal but i suck at normal. I'm not normal and I can't seem to do normal. I have no idea what i'm going to do after college. I have no idea how i'm going to make it until then except for one day at a time and these past couple days have been not so good.

I didn't go to the gym monday. I didn't go to the gym today. I probably can't go on saturday. I suck.

I'm tired of feeling lonely all the time, and making life decisions that make me feel even lonelier.