quick post before work

i'm gaining weight...it's really frustrating even tho it's not in the least bit suprising.  I eat four thousand calories a day, that's right. all in one sitting too.  it's disgusting.  it may all be healthy food (lean soy protein, fruit, whole wheat bread, yogurt, etc) but it's still calories.  The thing is, with as much as i exercise, i need the majority of that food.  But exercise is wearing me out.  Regardless tho, my real complaint this morning is...i have weighed 120 (give or take a pound or two) for a while, now i'm probably back up to 125 (give or take...).  At 5'5" that's still an ok weight.  And if i had weighed 130 before, i would be looking great at 125, but to go from 120 to 125 sucks.  People notice these things.  Once you set a precedent, it's hard to slide even a little bit.  Ugh.  Need to stop bingeing!